It has been a while, and what a while it has been… I have been writing down my day to day, but not typing much and I really want to be journaling this to share with you, yet, I have been busy. My day to days always have something in them, and I love them all. So different and so full of precious moments in each one. I sometimes pray for the rainy days since those are fun and pressure-less, where I can sit back, relax and not worry about anything, with the benefit of filling up the water tanks and watering my plants.
Being here on the island and spending time alone, I have many conversations with myself about the woman that I am, who I was and who I am to become. I use to think that I had most of it, as in life, figured out. I knew everything about licensing and government protocols, I had that stuff down, it became second nature. I knew how to maximize my income for living and even travelled when possible. I got good at the life thing, good at work, good at traveling, good at budgeting, good at staying calm and happy when customers weren’t nice to me and happier when they were… then I come out of my comfort zone and reality sunk in. I was barely scratching the surface. It was strange to come out of that bubble and into the real world and not know about soooo many topics. I came out and realized there is so much to learn, from finance, business, photography, housing, markets, my retirement, cooking to even construction and I want to learn it all now. What best to do, then “Just go do it right!”.
My ME confusion starting pulling on my heart strings and took a toll on my relationship with my partner and with other people that I love dearly, needless to say, that coming here and being alone has helped me mend broken pieces and follow the path of positive energy to build up again. Everything is Energy, and that is all there is to it.
Today, on Day 10, this song came on from the intro of 20th Century Fox as I started to type on my computer, that made me chuckle, like is that an intro to my story today…I woke up on this day feeling so comfy in bed, and since I didn’t have anything scheduled for this morning, I went outside and meditated on the balcony and did my yoga class with Adrienne, then I went to lay down on the couch and had my cup of coffee. I decided to then take myself for a ride on the ruckus to West Bay. I stopped by the Light house and met Clinton, he sells trinkets there and he is a funny dude. On my way back, I stopped by to visit Faby, who is Captain David’s wife. I went to school with David back in Tegus when I was growing up, and they just had a baby boy, so I went to meet the little guy and chat with her. I met her when I came here the first time and she is really nice, so it was exciting to see her and their new baby. It’s so interesting to see how lives change with babies, the reality is that “Creation “ is a beautiful thing and when you find that person that compliments all that you are and you both come together in beautiful harmony for co-creating, joint creation is a magical thing, a lot of work, but very magical. I left her and came home just in time to make my way to the dive school to do a night dive.
I haven’t been on a night dive in a while. My past couple of night dives, I had my personal rescue diver by my side and this time I was a bit nervous. I didn’t do my best on this dive, after 35 mins into the dive I became a little stressed and I wasn’t calming down, so I requested to make my ascend. Crazy enough, if you aren’t at peace in a dive, everything turns to shit…I think that way when It comes to life in general. If you’re always thinking bad shit, well bad shit is going to keep surfacing. I wasn’t very happy with myself since they were going out to see the bioluminescence and the phenomenon called “String of Pearls” (A bioluminescence phenomenon where when resting at the bottom you look above the coral and see the lights create what seems to be a string of pearls, like stars in the sky aligning) it is magical. I did it a few years ago and It is one of those things that you must see. I was bummed, but no point in getting upset, and I can go back on the next new moon when it is dark again and I’ll be set then, so I changed my emotion.
Once I arrived home, D and k messaged me to come over to top the night off and since it was such a peaceful night, (wind wise) we went up to their rooftop. They have a terrace on the top of their house, big enough for 4 people , and the 3 of us laid down and stargazed. It was incredible!! The view from up there and the stars and the night and just all of i,. Then D goes down to get ice cream and WOW, I am sitting on top of D and K’s roof, in their terrace, and every star in the sky is lit, I have a bowl of ice cream and I am flying. It’s a priceless view … We doze off with a happy belly and the wind and the night sky. I loved it! I woke up in the middle of the night and made my way back to my place. I walked in my place with the biggest smile ever. I don’t know how I got so lucky and don’t remember of what life was without this or before this… I’m not sure when if I’ll ever wake up, but I am surely enjoying this dream time. It is a timeless place . Where time slows down within me and around me.
I really want to share the magic that is this place. I wanna share the beauty, the spiritual, the profound feeling that is this place and what it embodies. It’s the ocean, the sunsets, the moon, the wind, my fishy friends in the water, the reef looking at me every day, the dance of the palm trees, the starry sky, the peace, the serenity and uniqueness that all these put together creating The Manifestation of my dreams… Don’t wake up, because I’m dreaming!!!
Until my next post, I hope you find your place also, and if you haven’t, know that dreams DO come true, you just have to believe….
